Saturday, July 24, 2010

surprise refreshing

My amazingly precious friend Kelsey, is starting an internship at The Wall…which is a 24/7 House of Prayer that’s being established here in the Springs. Tonight she invited me and my friend to a little bbq they were having for their friends and family. On the way there, we were talking about how we missed those days of YWAM (Youth With a Mission)…and that feeling of starting a new school. Where you’re crazy nervous but excited…knowing that you really heard God (but still questioning if you might be crazy) and were in the right place…and instantly bonding with your group because you're on the exact same path together for that season.

YWAM…IHOP Internships (prayer place not pancake)…Master Commissions…etc,…are life changing moments. There’s something about separating yourself unto God…setting aside a season of your life to just stop and truly focus on God, and God alone. To allow yourself to get outside of your surroundings…outside the traditional mindset of the mainstream church…outside the box you’ve put God and your relationship with Him in. You are literally engaging with the Heart of God on a 24/7 basis with a community of people sharing the same heart's desire as you. You've left the distractions behind. Your perspective changes, your vocabulary changes, and most importantly, you change. It’s hard to explain unless you’ve experienced it. But those who have, are forever different.

We walked in tonight and started introducing ourselves and talking to the others. I was instantly in love…and could have stayed in the corner the entire night just observing and listening to the conversations around me. I loved listening to others share their heart about what they felt like God was...and is going to their lives, in Colorado Springs, and in the world. Because they're engaged in the heart of God on such an intense just pours out of them in everything they do...conversations, introductions, goodbyes. Even just the prayer before the meal made me teary because the passion and love for God was so completely evident that it couldn't help but being expressed even when stopping for a moment just to bless the food.

This week has been a hard one for me. I have felt God’s hand...His strength...and His peace over me through it all. But tonight…just being in the presence of these people that were totally sold out...completely consumed...and passionately in love with their Bridegroom brought such a refreshing to my Spirit, in ways I wasn’t even aware I needed. There's an awakening that happens in your Spirit when you're among this kind of community. It was like a watering of those dry places that have been dry for so long...I didn't even know it was an option for the dryness to be quenched.

It reminded me of one of my favorite Psalms.... #63:

1 O God, you are my God;
Earnestly, I search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
2 But I have seen you in your sanctuary
and gazed upon your power and glory.
3 Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
how I praise you!
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
5 You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
I will praise you with songs of joy.
6 I lie awake thinking of you,
meditating on you through the night.
7 Because you are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you; 
your strong right hand holds me securely.
 9 But those plotting to destroy me will come to ruin.
They will go down into the depths of the earth.
10 They will die by the sword and 
become the food of jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God.
All who trust in him will praise him,
while liars will be silenced.

I’m so grateful that God watered those dry places tonight. His faithfulness and provision never cease to amaze me. And I’m so so SO excited for my friend as she begins her internship. She’s gonna be blogging her way through it if you wanna follow her! She's over at  A Watchman's Blog (and she's listed under 'the princess warrior watchman' on my blogroll!)

(fyi- HeatherClark Band has a GREAT song of this really should all own the entire cd, Selah. They just sat down, opened Psalms and added notes to the verses. How can you not love that? Here's this song if you care)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

trying once again...

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo...remember one time...last summer I said this? 'possible summer goal'
...Which was basically me saying that I was wanting to do the Read the Bible in 90 Days Challenge for the summer.

Ya well...I failed. Miserably failed. Sad and pathetically....failed.

I started off strong. And my fantastic Aussie friend Belinda joined in with the challenge...and that helped keep me inspired so freakin much as I read her updates and comments from her friends that were doing it too.

And then...I got sick.

But I tried to catch up.

And then…I went on vacation.

But I tried to catch up….sorta.

And then I got overwhelmed…and then complacent…and then mad and frustrated at myself.

But then I got REINSPIRED and tried to finish Isaiah-Revelation in about 4 days.

Cause that’s how I roll.

And of course…

I failed miserably.

I’ve realized that it’s been a year now. And this summer’s challenge is going on…and my tiny little bookmark is still in the same place I left off in the challenge last year…

So I’m jumping back in! Maybe since I made it half way last year I’ll make it the rest of the way this summer. Maybe I can still count it as 90 days...with an ever so slight hiatus.

Ok now….come on people…who’s in with me???

Friday, July 9, 2010

raining fireworks

Again…I’m just a big ole pile of excuses…but really…life has been insane, and blogging was the last thing on my mind. Ok, actually…that’s not true…blogging was on my mind CONSTANTLY…I just couldn’t ever seem to find the time to stop and write the 15 kajillion thoughts running through my mind this last month. They (ok...I don’t actually know who consists of the aforementioned ‘they’ but irregardless…) say the number one key to a successful blog is updating regularly and/or daily. Who are these people that can do that? That’s what I want to know. Do they not have real jobs? And if so, how do they pull this off...cause I want the secret! I’d love to be able to do nothing but sit around blogging my thoughts…events…theories in life. Jonathan Acuff (Stuff Christians Like) seems to have a real job…and a newly published book. How does he still find the time to blog every day? Course, Matthew Paul Turner (Jesusneedsnewpr) doesn’t seem to have a job and just sits around all day blogging and looking for cheesy pictures of Jesus to ridicule. I want that gig. Ok, not really…but I do want to at least find a way to make time to pull off my own gig. Cause I got things to say to you people! LOTS of things. For goodness sakes.

So I will start with at least this for a catch up…this week was the 4th of July…and it is definitely in my top 5 most favorite 4th’s ever. (side note rant: what is this new trend about people whining that we refer to it as the ‘4th of July’ and NOT ‘Independence Day’. I heard SO many people complain about it this year. Really? That’s an issue that needs a stance? I so don’t get that)

My sister was up here for the week for her much needed vacation. So there was lots of fun and bargain shopping abounding. I loved that she was up here. AND…one of my most favorite things in the world is watching fireworks…so thanks to the Skysox (local baseball team) we got to watch fireworks on Friday AND Saturday night. THEN…on Sunday…the actual 4th…we decided to go out to Palmer Lake. There were food booths and live music and people galore. Course…only in Colorado would you see the normal Turkey Leg and Corn on the Cob booths…right down the row from...the Organic Chicken booth.

So after walking around to the little stores and such…and eating…outside on a blanket (I know-shocking for those that know me)…my friends had grace on me when I realized that not only had our bag become the new habitat for a gigantic granddaddy long-leg…but we were also sitting by some holes in the ground that were clearly not made by Prairie Dogs. Plus- it started sprinkling, so we grabbed our stuff…minus the spider…and went back to the Trailblazer.

Here’s where the fun truly abounded. We laid the seats down…and all piled in the back. We hung out telling stories…singing camp songs…making videos…all while it rained and HAILED off and on. The radio said the fireworks were still on…so we stayed. Then sure enough…at 9 on the dot…while the rain was still pouring down…the fireworks went off. Now as much as I hate the outdoors, I LOVE storms and rain…and I love being out in the rain (I’m a quandary of dichotomy, I know) So we all jumped OUT of the car and stood in the rain watching the fireworks…that were highlighted by the thunder and lightning happening in the background.

Tell me that’s not the greatest thing you’ve ever heard? I so loved it. It was some of my most favorite things and people…all rolled into one. It was a FANTASTIC Independence Day 4th of July! (heeheehee)

OH! and P.S….for all those on the edge of your seats waiting for the decision from the last post…I’m going with DISHES!!!! And now…the hunt for the perfect mix and colors begin…