Tuesday, January 14, 2014

my one word and God-attribute for 2014

So I've actually had my 2014 one word and God characteristic for a couple weeks now...I just haven't written about it. Here's a shock- the big epiphany, the one with the angels descending from the sky to hand me the words to write for this post, DIDN'T. HAPPEN. I know! I suppose I just have to go on without them... 
Of course, while not. writing...I enjoyed reading different posts of 2014 words and how/why it's their theme for the year. I'm completely fascinated by the process one goes through for this, whether I know them or not. (My favorite so far has been Sarah Bessey's...which ironically enough, is about NOT having a word...but I easily identified, I have to say.) Surprisingly, my 2014 words actually came fairly easy to me this year, which is ever-so-lovely compared to the heart-drama of last year. And like my 2014 resolutions, God seems to be continuing the theme of revisiting and remembering, and not so much into jumping into the brand-new. I'm so very intrigued by this, I must say. 
(I was totally Linky McLinkerston in that paragraph. You're welcome.) 


Delight.
de·light:  greatly please. Take great pleasure in, or something that causes it.
please: make someone feel happy and satisfied
pleased: feeling or showing pleasure and satisfaction
pleasure: feeling of happy satisfaction and enjoyment
satisfactionfulfillment of one’s wishes, expectations, or needs, or the pleasure derived from this
  
Delight is my word for 2014. It is actually a word that subtly, but continually, popped up throughout 2013…in songs, books I was reading, and over and over and over in scriptures I was studying. I had no idea God was such a fan of this particular word. It stuck out every time I came across it...but in those, back-of-your-mind-not-really-paying-full-attention-kind-of-ways. I would ask God what it really meant. What did it really mean to truly delight in Him, or to delight in His Word, etc? But, I never really stopped to listen for an actual answer. So when God told me this was my word for 2014...I was, well... delighted. And ohmygoodness, with the heaviness that has hung over me these last years...I'm so exhaustively grateful for this breath of fresh air. And something tells me there is great depth to the gem of delighting…and I think there will be much joy in the journey of finding its treasure.


Father. 
     Abba. 
        Avinu. 
Father is my 2014 God-attribute. This is definitely not a new concept for me, but I have to admit...it is one I've let slip by the wayside…replaced by new, different, hidden…exciting…discoveries of who God is. Growing up in Dysfunction-Junction, this is an aspect of God that I've held closest to my heart for as early as I can remember. But I think, subconsciously, I was feeling too grown-up for it. Too mature. Like I had somehow grown past it, because I wasn't that broken little girl anymore. But I cherish the fact God whispered this characteristic. And I think there’s a several aspects and purposes in this. The obvious one being~ don't forget the existence of those vital stones, just because they're deeply hidden in your foundation... because there is still more truth to be found in them.

I’m so deeply intrigued by what this new, yet so familiar, journey shall hold in 2014. And I’m extremely curious as to what everyone else’s themes are too. So please let me know! And if you’ve written (or will write) about it…please link up so I can be a part of your journey as well!  

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And oooooooh my goodness…do you not just LOVE this song? Like, love-love. Like, have it on repeat for hours, if not days at a time-love. Like, can’t possibly ever get the sound loud enough from the speakers-love. Like, your spirit and soul want to explode into an array of fireworks every. single. time. you hear it-love. Like, really. Love, love, love, love, love it. Love.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

the resolutions of 2014


Ok, so I’m really trying to get back into the groove of blogging. So just humor me if I make some rambling, pointless posts. Cause it’s all about just. doing. it. Just. freaking. write. Right? Bleh. I'm already annoyed that this little blah blah blah nuthin post has taken me 5 days to put together. ri-dic-u-lous. But...Imma just keep going. Plus, I know....KNOOOOoooOOOOW, the blog world is just dying to know my 2014 resolutions. AND...they say it's important to write these things down...to make them truly official, and Habakkuk-approved... and such as.
So, I guess, here we go- My 2014 Resolutions:

1- First and foremost: to continue the pattern of quiet times I established in 2013. Oy. Let’s be honest, can I just say that I hate that phrase quiet times. Can we please come up with something better? I mean, really. Maybe this is actually the first resolution of the new year…to replace the phrase ‘quiet time’ with something that doesn’t make us all secretly cringe. Or am I the only one who does? "Quiet times"??? Who came up with that phrase anyways? And why has it stuck? Everyone get busy on finding a better phrase and report back. Surely we can do better, can’t we? Oy. But as I was saying……
So I actually kinda got it together in my ‘quiet time world’ in 2013…and I definitely want to keep on this path. And I don’t want to just maintain what I have. I want to do more, go deeper, get up earlier (oy, what?), hang out longer, dig more, listen more, journal more, et cetera...et cetera...et cetera. While it has been quite the lovely start...I want/need more.

2- Prayer time. I love prayer. Always. I’ve labeled myself a praying girl. I went to a YWAM school that specifically focused on worship and prayer. I’ve taught on prayer. I’m a hard core believer that there should be more prayer happening and it drives me batty that we don't engage in this more, as a whole. HOWEVER…I came to the conclusion in 2013, that my personal prayer life sucks...and there’s something very key I’m missing and I've got to get it figured out. It is SO not where it’s supposed to be. HOPEFULLY (Lord, have mercy) I’m going to write more about this in a future post.

3- Be more creative. Ok, so I’m created in the image of a creative God, so I must be creative, right? Of course, right. And I actually am a more right-brained kind of girl, so creativity should come much easier than it does. So I don't get why it can be such a struggle. The desire is definitely there, at every moment of every day, honestly. Ideas are constantly floating about. But it's the doing it, in the way that's in my head, that I can't seem to ever pull off. And God has been telling me to be more active in my creativity for several years now, and I had made good progress, but...I feel like it was something that was stolen a little bit last year….so I’m determined to get it back in this one. Intentional Creativity in 2014. Who’s coming over with their paints and glue gun?And a guitar? We always need someone with a guitar. 

4- To love more. For real. Those quintessential verses... the ones that sums up the entire Bible... the very essence of the heart of God... the description of what we were put on this earth to do: To love the Lord with all our heart, mind, soul, and strength. And to love our neighbors as ourselves. Again, this could become several more blog posts. Because this certainly is not what the world sees when they look at the church. And this breaks my heart open, into all. the. pieces. I spent several days shedding tears because of that damn duck controversy, and this became my heart's cry. And as much as I want the church, as a whole, to really get this down to the fiber of our being, it starts with the individuals, doesn't it? So *I* want to be known by this, through and through. I want this to be the very essence of what I live and breathe. That I am a passionate lover of a God who accepts me right where I'm at...and because of that, I'm a passionate lover of my neighbors, right where they're at. I need grace to ooze from my pores. I want to draw people closer to Him, not be an obstacle that pushes them further away. So I'm asking God for new and greater revelation regarding these verses...and how to truly walk them out. 

5- Blog more. Because, well, …………duh.

6- Read more. Again, I went through a shlumpy phase and only stared at the piles of books around my house, but never cracking any open. In the last 4ish months, I began to rediscover my love for reading, and I’ve actually made a dent in the pile of books on my night stand. So, I was all gung-ho and set a completely unreasonable reading goal for 2014. Course, I have since realized I was crazy…and have significantly reduced said goal to a much more (hopefully) obtainable one. 

7- To remember. I’m not quite sure how to explain this. But a couple of weeks ago…I started hearing the whispers. The whispers and reminders of a very specific season past and of tiny little moments with God that I had forgotten. And God keeps telling me to remember. So I'm consciously trying. And I think there's a lot He wants to (re)show me. 


So this is what I like about my list…it isn’t just a brand new list of wannabees in my life. It’s actually concepts that in 2013 were seeds that were established and slowly started growing. I want to be intentional about continuing to water and nurture the seeds, so they grow with big, giant, taking-over, kind of roots... deep down into the inner recesses of my soul and become established in my heart for all eternity. That’s not really too much to ask, is it? I didn't think so.